Perpetually confused: Vacant Eyes

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Vacant Eyes

Vacant eyes
staring hard at nothingness
Contemplate
on the growing void

Branded a naysayer
Othered at once
Tries to look forward
but for the blackhole blinding her vision

Scared
she shuts her eyes
Lest the gravity
sucks her sight too

In her closed eyes
dreams dwell
Her sole respite
where her gaze
for a change
can pierce the dense blackhole
And lead her to light

3 comments:

Anonymous said...: well written.

and atleast the closed eyes are still left with dreams!; 3:01 AM
Vidya Jayaraman said...: Geetika,
It is not often one finds such content such as yours on blogs. You have a lovely blog. Hoping to read more of your posts! I landed here thanks to my recent readings on Abhinavagupta and a related-blog post of mine.; 8:05 AM
geetika said...: hi vidya,
thanks a lot..did go through your blog too and will definitely read it at length later...loved the contents..hope to keep in touch and exchange ideas.
geetika; 7:45 PM

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